where is the change?

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Like most of the youth in india, i am not too much into politics etc just because we have this whole ideology in our head that the corruption in india cant be eradicated. But like every concerned indian I to follow the elections just to keep a track. when the terror attacks in mumbai took place all of mumbai and even most of india went on a this hughe rampage of changing their leaders, personnel etc. at that time it looked very apparent that the time had come for this country to get a change and its the youth who shall be taking the responsibilty in hand now. the whole outburst against pakistan, prooving kasab’s nationality etc went about at a very brisk pace and everybody thought that this time pakistan would be put to task. its been 5 months now to this whole incident and where have we reached? how apparent have the changes been seen? thats a question we keep asking ourseleves every now and then just to get the big fat NO as answer.
Just recollecting the incident i happen to travel to the CST station (the place were the 1st shooting took place) just 7 days after the terror attack and it was the regular busy station as expected. But when i jus saw the station after seeing it like 100 times on the news channel  a chill went down my spine it  was kinda scary just to see in the corners broken/damaged parts of the station and to imagine that this was the place where ppl were shot during a moderately busy time. the only thought that comes to your mind is that the ppl of mumbai are really up for anything…the spirit of mumbai(most over used term)as they so call it is always there! fine you tend to agree with all of this but…also get this thought that ok this time there would something different as in more ppl standing up for justice, making sure the security is fine etc or atleast turning up to vote so that they can make their voices heard!
what happend? well we all know after the terror attack there followed this hughe mourning and some lame efforts to awake the sleepless mumbai ppl that the time has come for change! at that time it looked really pretty i must admit. you see ppl sending you all this texts msgs with alot of vigour in them alot of so called nationalism filled in it. but as the saying goes nothing lasts for ever and this also dint have a long impact. over the course of time everything was forgotten. the most heartbreaking part was that neither did the ppl come out to vote in numbers(infact lesser in % than last time) and the worst the government was the same yaawn as usual!
all right lets not go into the analytical part that why dint the ppl come out to vote etc? even when you have all your tv commercials which are really popular…ur celebs who come out and appeal to everybody that pls vote etc! theres got to be some solution to this.no revolution,no terror attack, no influence from anyone can help us do bring about the change until we decide that the time has come!!
as they say if like gives you lemons! make lemonade ! if you get the same old government…then just pray it lasts its duration rather than being overthrown! we all want our country, our state, our city to progress but i guess if it doesnt start from us..its never going to happen!

Read more | Comments (1) | May 17th, 2009

the dark side!

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ever felt like your the worst person in the world or the type of person with whom no one wud like 2 be with?the type of person who jus cant stand himself leave aside others..the person who jus gets angry at the most smallest of things..or rather hunts for excuse 2 remove his frustration..jus 2 burst out ..all to realize it isnt helpin..damagin your ownself and ppl around u…the time wen your tired of bein alone but dont want any to come nearby u..the time wen u begin to question your sanity…the time wen bangin you head on the wall seems like the perfect solution..the time wen u start to emphatize with ppl..who hav commited suicide…the time wen all the things you wudnt want to do …is the only ting you crave for now!…time wen..the wierdst n the most darkest side of ur nature…goes on the leash..n u jus cant control it…feels like its makin sum forgetable n sum not so forgetable dents in ur life…the time wen  u feel the mistakes u had committed previously are justified…some mite say its height of frustration..sum mite term it as pure stupidity..but then..either of them doesnt proove ur insane…but it gets so confusin that u cant even find a emotion 2 describe…the time wen rage..anger…etc..feel like a mild feelin compared to wat u are goin thru…the phase jus doesnt seem 2 leave u…rather it comes bak 2 you..in times when u least need it 2…its jus sumtin ur stupid self does 2 pull you down..or lets say make holes on board of a smooth sailin ship..it pulls u dwn slow n steady…they are times wen…even ur best music..or ur best frnd..dnt come in handy..it is urself..n i guess..to get of your own dark side..is one hell of a task…!

Read more | Comments (1) | October 18th, 2008

touched..

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As one of my previous blogs read you only feel lucky only after you look down on people who arent as lucky or happy as your are.
this small story when i heard for the 1st time was emotionally touched.i was in a small city of gujrat when i came across this small family of 3.
mom,dad and a 20sumthing kid.the parents when  i first saw them theylooked like the kids grand parents.i was abit suprised but then i dint pay much heed to it.after the meeting got over my aunt who was with me started to tell me about this family.apparently this kid was sum kind of miracle kid,and due to some medical problems in one of their parents(dint go2 tat u know hw embarassin it get 2ask such questions,not tat i wasnt curious)they couldnt have a kid for long,even the docs had given up.
but as we all know the greatest thing that we indians have is immense faith.be it for a world cup cricket victory,a miracle , big dreams u name it n its there.similarly this mother although bein a muslim went to every religious spot(a good quality i really apreciate i.e.respect for all religions)for more than a decade without any response. but still nothing happend.everytime she went to pray her eyes were all wet askin this question to god “I havnt done anything worng to anyone but why is it that you arent listenin 2 me..!”.
finally after almost 20 yrs of their marriage she got pregnant.its even hard 2 imagine the whole wave of happiness that mite have over taken them at that time.to top up the whole thing was that the delivery was normal and they had a boy..a very healthy one.
as i mentioned before the miracle kid was brilliant in studies and a quick learner,but the naughtiness which is an adorable charecteristic of any kid was very prominent in him.he was hyper active as most of the 3-4yrs old  are but the bad part was that his mom wasnt all that well after the delivery,the old age delivery had caused some health probs for her so couldnt walk that fast,i.e not able 2 catch up with the kid .
now another touching part of this whole incident is that when ever the mom used 2 scold the kid for his mistakes the kid used 2 come next 2 her mom get a stick and give it 2 her mom sayin that “mom i made a mistake,your unhappy na?beat me!”..even my aunt was overwhelemd wen she said this..and she also mentioned that the mom used 2 literally cry wen her 3 yr old blessed child wud do such a thing..and now she proudly says..not only god has gifted me a child but he his the best son i could have ever asked for..i dont why i am writting this but the whole thing did touch me at that time..the light  air had jus warmed up with the moist of emotion and alot of thoughts goin here n there..i guess miracles 2 happen 2 gud ppl after..all!!

Read more | Comments (1) | September 24th, 2008

to be or not to be…

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well..all of us at some time or the other have sat down and wondered..wheater or not is it the same old me..or lets say do we actually behave the way we actually are?..its human to err…said sum famous fellow…well its also human for a person 2 point out mistakes of others before he/she does of his ownself..but still at an instant wen a friend or even a person you know pretty well begins to behave as some whoe he/she is not…and not only that..things that  are against your ethics or..moral values are considered stupid and immature u begin to wonder wheather is it..actually you or the ppl around..you…most of us end up bein someone whoe we arent actaully jus becos we think the world(that genrally doesnt gives a shit)..will treat us differently..i dont if i an rite or wrong..but i’ve always felt being yourself is the best way to..but most of us..wen we end up acting differently..find it completely..correct and live with the fact that..thers nothin wrong about..this is wen..i feel..thers got to be some serious..re-thinking to be done…no ones perfect and never will be..but i feel jus that little effort to try and improve ourseleves..rather than behavin someone who you are not..is the right way to go about things.i mean at the end of the day all wat you want is to lay back and satisfied that you have been yourself..wats the point of portrayin someone who arent!
its not about ones ownself when u see others behavin like this..then u begin to wonder..wats real and wats not..this is wen u feel..you or even that other person is two faced! feels like and insult..but its the bitter truth that we are quite content with..i strongly believe..when a person things..thers nothin leaft to improve in him..is the time..wen he has to do some serious re-thinkin about…i know i mite have not got the nod’s from many of you..but then..isnt it valid to pay some heed to the fact that..bein yourself is the right way to be..and finally you can neva accomplish tha task of makin everyone happy…so why not be content..by atleast make ones ownself happy?

Read more | Comments (0) | September 20th, 2008

the feel good factor!

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they say if u wanna feel happy then look at the ppl who arent as lucky as you are…believe it or not…there are times..or instances in ur life which compel you to defy your own thoughts.oh..c’mon..hw many hrs hav we all spent sulkin about our sad life…bad luck..and such things..i mean..if we wud hav even spend..like…1/4th of the time analysin tha gud things that we hav in life..then surely..we wud’ve been alot more happier than wat we are now..hm..spiritual…huh?wel..yea kinda..i mean..things that are proved in ones own life so..often..hav to be taken into accounts..as facts..m sure..all of us must’ve come across one or even..more such intances..wen u look up at the gods and say..”Thank you!”..this comes out..rite frm ur heart wen u seriously realise how lucky..u are 2 be wat you are…!!but then…i feel..if such things happen wit a higher frequency..i guess the level of satisfaction and even..happiness my jus step up a notch!ther again…you come bak 2 the same pt..that..its  you and only you..who decides..how happy/content/satisfied..can u be..with your own..life..i mean..we all crave for the same thing..but fail to realise..that its not others..that can change things for us..but its jus us…who can make a diffrence in our lifes…as the famous sayin goes
‘happiness isnt a small things…but small things give us happiness’
bla..bla…philosophical..dreamland shit..! as it always sounds..hm..but wen..u seriously pay some heed 2 it…u realise…”hey..tis is kina true”..i mean..at this age..who tha hell cares of tis shit..live as u wish…its like sum free bird…but then..ther are times..u realise…how much better..you were..with restrictions around..u….at times..you go..so far ahead that u kinda begin to miss you old self..its really rare to come across a person who says…i am much happier now..than i was in school…or colg…etc..wud be..really happy..if i had sum1 prove me wrong on tis..one…!

Read more | Comments (0) | July 20th, 2008

if ya wanna be gud u gotta be bad!

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some times u end up doin or commiting things you never really wanted to..this doesnt leave u with anything but a sick feelin…u go thru with ur commitment all 2 realise that its not wat u really wanted to..but then again u realise you’ve got no option but 2 go on with it…we all know that its impossible 2 make every one happy..but still we keep tryin in vain..all to realise that we havnt made ourselves happy either!..now its time to pull your socks up and realise that bein jus a nice swt person or make every one smile kina attitude is goin 2 get u no where!so i guess its better off..bein abit selfish and thinkin bot urself…n ten..others..cos thats wat matters at the end of the day..u bein happy..it doesnt mean..literally bein rude or pushin some one aside but..jus bein happy with wat you are doin..sometimes the most simplest things are the most toughest to impliment!
who ever said politics arent played in day to day life…everyone of us some were down the lane is bitch/dog…and if ur not..then..that defines how happy you are!?
ya..ya..bein swt is nice..but bein good all the time is stupid..!..its we who make the choices..when you come at a stage when u decide..that you the one whos makin or breakin your own day….not ur loved ones..then u should realise that ur on the right track…i mean..ya..u love em…but..everythin has got2 hav its limits defined…n its you who sets em…its always nice to let that darker side of you to dwell abit get more of real life practise…the verdict goes on that…bein mean is good..as long as its not over the board and..yes the most important factor”It makes u happier”.

Read more | Comments (0) | June 9th, 2008

wen goin gets tuff tha tuf get goin!

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there alwys comes a time in ur life or lets say ther are intances that come infront of u again n again wich compell u to realise wat ur priorities are..most of the time its ur laid back attitude that keeps lettin u off the hook again n again….but sum times u’ve to jus stamp ur foot down n stick to a decision wich u generally dont end u doin!but then again u can run frm u responsibilities but cant hide frm ur inner self wich makes u realise how laid bak u’ve been all this while..things luk tough at tha start of it…ah…they always do!! but then when its got 2 be..done..its jus got to be done…u try hard…pumpin urself up…sumtimes positively…and sometimes remindin urself of the fear of loosin out on the things you wud if u end up failing..but then there comes a stage..wen u jus loose..all hopes..and accept ur faith…i guess..tats the part wen the chips are down..this is tha instant were u’ve to pick ur ownself up!! no one else is or nothin else case u frm ur ownself…i dont know why but i’ve alwys felt that there are more enimies within than there are hurdles outside..things like “laziness,fear,-ve attitude….”dont jus let u dont wat u really want to…but the day u can overcome them all..wil be the day..u’ll…finally start takin steps..in the rigth direction..
so i guess…ur ability is truely proved only wen u can act aptly in tough situations…!!

Read more | Comments (0) | March 21st, 2008

same old trap again!!

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well..u dont neccessary need 2 to do something wrong..to feel bad..who ever thought guilt is
 
the only feelin of disgust and bein self critical.wasnt entirely correct..sometimes things jus

take sum stupid uneccessary turns which not only makes ur mind blow apart but also feel

really undone about some matters…you feel u are over reacting and let the whole issue pass

over you but then within a short period..the same thing repeats itself and this time it hits

harder than the earlier one..now u really begin to wonder if its the other person…??u..??or

jus ur fucked up luck??i mean u try hard 2 convince ur ownself..knowin that u havnt made a

blunder..but the other persons reaction has a dautin impact on u..!!well that does draw one

conclusion that the person is close enough 2 u ..to hurt u..but mayb not the same other way

around..and u cant help things..u cant decide..weather u like a person or not..n this has

nothing to do in fallin in love etc..it mite be anyone a nice friend..ur close relative..or any1

else..but the bottom line is that he/she is close 2 you..and i’ve alws felt that ppl close 2 u

have the right to hurt..not any street sider..

this happenin to you so regularly…u begin to wonder..weather or not..u shud be gettin close 2

ppl..to an extent that they can hurt u..but..ther u are..cant help it..u jus feel like being nice

to that person..even after he/she fires or tells u off for things u arent wrong for..neither

the guilt nor the feelin of caring for that person leaves u…yet another..stupid unsolved

question u’ll keep askin yourseleves!!

Read more | Comments (0) | February 15th, 2008

simple!!

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suprising how ur views about ppl change so quickly…it happens so regularly that
 you begin to wonder is it them or is it you??it is tough to admit ur own mistakes but and then end of the day wen you realise ur own mistake it does give u a feelin of content..nah..its not directly implyin to me..but i guess it goes generally with everyone…maybe its happier to realise that you are wrong than know that the other person isnt that good…simplicity as they is the hardest the thing…still its called simple..lolz..n yea another thought i picked up is that the advantage of being a pessimist that either your constantly proved correct or get pleasent suprises…as we all know how much we see around us every single person is so distinct from each other…and i strongly believe that u certainly dont need to go through a certain incident or experience just to be able enough to deal with it…bein with diff ppl teaches you so much..and trust me if u look at it positively it will surely make u feel good i no…everyone is a bit religious and every religion tells u to forgive and let go small things…but honestly none of us follow the whole thing…frankly speaking i feel once if you get to that mode..things change so drastically..everything depends on us..and the way we take things…oh..plz its not a huge ask…jus a few small changes here n there…can jus end up makin us much happier and content..after all thats what all we strive for…isnt it?

Read more | Comments (0) | December 27th, 2007

..ur story?

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theres this one incident that hits my mind pretty often...once i 

was travelling to gujrat via the train....n as usual..i landed 

up..amidst a typical...gujju family...and yes...no hard feelins(as i 

am half gujju 2)..most or lets say all gujju females are gossip 

queens...i mean if there was ever a guiness record for gossips n 

baseless talks...m sure gujju females..wud..certainly break 

them!..ok comin back 2 the point when i got in to the train..the 

gujju family of 3-mom,daughter(ya! she was cute)..n an old 

dad..were discussin tha cute lukin gals marriage thingi...initially 

i was not bothered listenin to their chats ..although i couldnt 

avoid..as they were 2 loud..so i jus turned on my mp3 player..but 

after while...i couldnt help but listen 2 them...n yes..the whole 

conversation was a whole lot of fun...as we all know this common 

trend in gujju family is that a guy or girl from abroad comes down 

for bride/bridegroom huntin..n most of the times..they guy or tha 

girl frm abroad(usa in this case) ends up gettin a gud catch..in 

this case the cute luking gal...who i couldnt help but checkout 

couple of times was gettin engaged to this guy...(sum 

jignesh,dharmesh..etc..gujju name)n they had just met in 

mumbai..acc to them the whole thing turned up 2 to be well...but 

then again typical hindi filmy characters..lyk a vamp masi..n 

irritating dadi did exist..as i came 2 know all this..(there again 

they were 2 loud so couldnt stop myself frm overhearing them)..i 

finally stopped thinking about how cute that gal was..n started 

wonderin hows she feelin about the whole thing..its hard 2 imagine 

what u go through wen ur about 2 marry a stranger..or lets a 

guy..whos jus got big bucks(Mr.Gujju-USA)..n a decent family 

background..she wasnt to sure herself...i could see her..ponderin 

over her future...life..m sure it mite be one diff feelin..her 

parents..seem 2 be telling how to go about life...work..be 

nice..obey ur monster...aa..sorry..mother-in-law...she was quitely 

agreeinn...(i told u..she was cute ;)...this whole chat lasted for 

almost 3 hours untill..they slept..i mean...sometimes i feel ppl so 

easily decide over the most significant decisions of their 

lives!jus cos the guys rich doesnt me hez gud..but then i 

guess..thats what arrange marriage is like...eva thought how is it 

goin to be in your case...???then again the same funda comes to 

use..the more u think about anything the more confused u get about 

it...but i personally..feel..wateva is it..arrange or love 

marriage...most important part of is to know the person 

well...after all ur goin 2spendin rest of life with him/her.....wat say?

Read more | Comments (2) | December 6th, 2007

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